“ I AM NOT I”
I am not I.
I am this one
Walking beside me whom I do not see,
Whom at times I manage to visit,
And at other times I forget.
The one who remains silent when I talk,
The one who forgives, sweet, when I hate,
The one who takes a walk when I am indoors,
The one who will remain standing when I die.
– Juan Ramón Jiménez
To me it is wonderful – that there are (a few) actual people who are able directly to apprehend such truths (as expressed in the epigram, by Jimenez)
Rilke has such insight, and Machado … probably Neruda (and others, no doubt)
Me – I’m a thinker and a philosopher (and I’ll write a poem when I HAVE to), and I’ve studied some. But basically such ‘direct apprehension’ seems to be above my pay grade. The reason that I regard as true – the basic notion in the epigram – is that it is confirmed by my studies.
I happen to have a very high regard for the British philosopher, G. K. Chesterton, who said –
“The whole order of things is as outrageous as any miracle which could presume to violate it.”
We all believe in the ‘physical world’. And we’ve heard rumors (at least) – of ‘metaphysical’ phenomena.
‘Metaphysical’ means – ‘beyond the physical’ … things that are ‘way out there’ on the iffy rim of the horizon. And we say this because we imagine that here at the center of reality – things are physical; and out there somewhere, in ooga-booga land, may also exist realities NON-physical.
But really, I think, we have it backwards (or maybe inside-out) … because here at the center is the ‘EXPERIENCER’, who is wonderfully non-material and airy. And we do NOT just experience material things; we also experience joy and sorrow, loneliness, beauty, grief, music, humor, love … quite a range of emotions and feelings. I suggest this is good reason to conclude that we are multi-dimensional beings. Mmm ?
[“Spock! You green blooded, pointy-eared hobgoblin!” “Calm yourself, Doctor”]
For several years I worked as a Hospice CNA; and I think it’s fair to say that we humans live in more than a single dimension … (certainly, at least) if we take into account the ‘normal’ experiences of people who are nearing death.
Dr. Christopher Kerr (a physician, who has bothered to study the experiences of the dying … and work up a data base) gives a very good TED talk:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rbnBe-vXGQM (dreams & visions of the dying … data)
His findings corroborate my own experience – that even while the body is dying, real healing may be happening at other levels.